What it’s like to be relentlessly you.


re-creation, free will + initiative.

"The butterfly becomes only when it’s entirely ready" -Chinese Proverb

"It takes courage to push yourself to places that you have never been before… to test your limits… to break through barriers. And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom" -Anais Nin 

Two years ago I received a ukulele for my birthday. The idea was inspired while attending my family reunion on Oahu, July 2011. I returned ready to learn to play an instrument that would allow me to further connect to my roots and heritage. The goal (yes, I’m a goal oriented person) was to competently play alongside my family by next reunion time.

So on that birthday when my husband presented me with a gift, I knew exactly what it was by its shape, I got a sick and sinking feeling as in, “this is just one more thing I’m going to half-ass in my life”.  Please understand I was extremely grateful and really touched, but I’ve been known to have too many balls in the air. I’d also made a recent decision to narrow my scope of interest to three things at a time, more about mastering quality not quantity.

Fast forward to last week, I exercised my right to free will, that ukulele had been calling to me.

I was in a space of desiring art-based pastimes outside of the gym or yoga studio that would center me, offer encouragement and not be so goal oriented; more joy for joy’s sake, not built so much on expectation.  I searched for a reputable teacher and took my first lesson.

Last Sunday I learned six chords and actually played the ukulele – that was not the goal, it just happened. 

We are capable of creating creation and love all the time. Activate that for yourself. What is it that you can create?  Focus on love and creation, start there. 

Actively participating in your life is a choice, free will doesn’t mean free ride. Free will is about the responsibility of making our heart centered dreams a reality. Like playing an instrument, life is about mastering one chord at a time…..

Creation comes outward through spirit, thought and love from within and relentless belief in yourself.